I am a faithful Christian. My faith is something that I have been working on for a long time in my life. I’ve always believed in God but I never really understood what that meant to me until recently. The reason I started going to church and trusting God more came from me needing Him, my family and I had reached rock bottom, I was hopeless and hurting. It felt like the world was falling apart, I needed something and I figured I’d give God a chance, and He worked. I know what a lot of people think, and I used to hide my faith from my friends. Now I embrace it, I don’t care if you think my beliefs are crazy, I’ve never tried to force my religion on any one of my friends. I love inviting my friends to church and talking about God’s work in my life but it’s not my job to push you, I just hope you see His work through me. I know I do things I’m not supposed to, but I’m not perfect, no one on earth is, but at the end of the day I know I’m on the right path, I know things happen for a reason. I can’t show you hard facts, quote the bible, or witness on miracles, but what I can tell you is I’ve felt God’s peace; I’ve gotten answers and seen His work. I’ll be honest, when life throws me a curveball, I feel sad, and I’ve had all I can take, I question Him. I ask why this would happen to me, when I’m a good person, why is there so much bad in a world He created? But then I look at all I’ve already gone through, and I made it, there was nothing I couldn’t handle. Every bad thing that has happened in my life made me stronger, made me the person I am today, shaped the way I see the world and how I treat people and live my life. God never did anything bad to me, people in my life treated me poorly, their decisions changed things but it’s my decision on how I react, what I do about it.
I don’t go to church as often as I’d like, but I know I’m doing what I’m supposed to. He knows what’s on my heart, I pray for those I love and those who have hurt me. I’m working towards what I’m meant to be. God finds me when I’m not looking for Him, whether it’s in a bible verse that I find randomly, a sense of relief on a stressful day, or a kind word from a stranger. You would be surprised where you can find a little divine intervention! It’s human nature to doubt a greater power, it’s our selfish way, but I am forgiven, because I am saved, a child of God.
I am faithful, I am hopeful, a little bit pessimistic at times, but that is momentary. I know my fate, I’m not fearful of the long term, the here and now is what scares me. I know ‘everything will be alright’ but it there is always concern. My way of looking at it, at the very lowest level, is how could you go on through life thinking this is it? That’s depressing. My time is coming, whether it’s here and soon, down the road or God knows when. It’s going to get better, one day, I’m sure. So when I have bad days, when I break down, I’m crying and doubtful, I just fall back on my faith. Whatever you choose, find some faith.
And if ever there comes a day, when you want to talk about anything, know I’m there for you… anytime, about anything. You’re never alone, everyone gets that feeling, but you’re never truly alone, I can promise you that someone cares, I care. Much love.
“Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.”